I only have two first cousins and we never lived near each other. With one of them I have kept up a long distance relationship over the years. Hoping to catch up after many months I called her yesterday. She is very highly evolved spiritually and teaches and writes on this subject. Our conversations are animated as we bring each other up to date on what's happening in our lives and we usually get around to some discussion on what's going on for us on a more spiritual level...meditation, synchronicities and so on.
As I bemoaned my lack of creativity of late she comforted me by saying that I was not alone in this frustration, that many across the globe are feeling this lack of motivation and sense of slogging through quick sand. (And I thought I just had the January/February...I'm Sick of Winter Blues.)
Whatever the cause, just talking with her and listening to some suggestions as to how to deal with this time was extremely helpful. She explained that this was a time to not let frustration and anxiety overwhelm one, but to instead use this time to set your intentions for what you would like to see happen in your life. In essence get clear on your needs and wishes for the future. Do not look at this time as wasted because of your lack of motivation or creativity but instead make preparations for when the energy shifts.
There was one area of my life that I was pleased with and was sharing with her how my relationship with money had changed. For years I have experienced a great deal of worry and anxiety around money and I spent way too much time fussing about it. Several months ago I adopted a new attitude toward money in my life. I decided I was doing all I could....working hard, spending consciously but happily when I did so, and saving as much as possible. The most important overriding aspect of this change was concentrating on coming from a place of abundance not want. Most of us, within reading distance of this, are living in a state of abundance. We don't want for housing, food, warmth....all of our basic needs are met and then some....usually a whole lot more of "then some".
Anyway, as I am telling her about my attitude shift, the mail slot clangs and a couple envelopes land on the floor but one is caught in the mechanism. I pick up the others and withdraw the stuck envelope and it appears to be a check. I start saying things like...
"You're not going to believe this, I think I just got a check in the mail, this is so weird etc. etc."
Ripping it open, I'm hoping it's for real but also thinking it was probably one of those pieces of junk mail that fool you into opening it because it appears to be a check but is a crummy marketing scheme.
Laughter..."No, I can't believe it". It was a $131 check from the US Treasury. I was not expecting this check, in fact I have no idea what it is. Perhaps in time I will recall something or I will learn why I received it but the fact is we were both stunned that I would receive this check just as I was telling her how much happier I was in relation to finances and how money came more easily as a result of my change in perspective.
A little aside....the numbers 1, 3 and 13 are my favorite numbers!
Love...love those moments! Just had to share.